The real life is..starting here...

As salam..salam sejahtera semua..

My deary blog.. I miss u so much.. Im sorry.. takde maksud mahu lupakan or ignore u tp i bz lar.. uhuhkuhuk.. sb soon or later mmg aku taw aku akan carik ko jugak.. huhu.. One day mmg ko je lah teman aku.. aku tau.. One fine day all ppl around me especially og yg aku sayang will leave me soon.. and i really hav to let it go..jus because its not mine..~

Hurm.. its been a while.. im here.. still here.. Actually.. for these few month.. its quite tough for me.. loosing few friends whose promise to be my friend in any of situation.. Sedih gak.. tertekan.. tapi aku tahu.. Allah kan ada..? i sholud'nt be give up.. all the rumors which some of that turns to slander.. it hit me like a storm, without a warning.. flashed me like a thunder.. bite me like a snake.. i hurt, i fall, i avoid.. i absorb, i survive..and i cry.. i always telling myself.. be patient.. a good day will come one day.. because He will never let me alone.. He watching over me, every of my steps.. in each single of my act, words, and intention..

Jangan penat memujuk hati, jangan penat untuk berusaha, jangan penat untuk mengalah.. selagi bernyawa, hidup lah.. dengan baik.. mohonlah padaNya... sebab tujuan kita hanya satu..kan? Terima kasih kerana menguji kesabaranku.. alhamdulillah ia membuatkan ku mengingatiMu.. tanpa jemu..setiap masa di waktu aku kesedihan.. Itu je yang mampu aku buat.. Aku tak mampu nak explain semua org dan defend myself.. aku tak mampu.. because it looks so stupid nk explain and bising sana sini.. nak bagitahu apa2.. one thing la.. nnt aku gak dapat dosa.. bcakap pasal orang.. anggap je ini dugaan, cabaran yang soon or later aku mmg jumpa orang2 yang macam ni.. tq, sebab benda ni kepala otak aku jadi batu, hekhek.. bagus..bagus.. hati jadi kayu.. so, what ever things i heard from anyone, it wont change me anyway.. never.. insyaallahh.. Dat d good part of me.. I thing.. Tak mampu nak layan perasaan hati orang.. tak larat.. im emotional sumtimes.. yup, as a young lady..single-no commitment-working-stress- the emo tu mmg datang.. and buat kan muka aku merah padam.. tak yah pkai blusher..tak yah make up.. naturally the blood spread in my face.. merah padam.. menahan sabar..its quite late rite now to be alone outside.. Plus.. tgk2 dat pic.. change my mood.. entah apesal.. rasa~macam~macam~rasa~ oaky need to go bed now..

Bubye my dearest blog.. i'll hope we will meet soon. maybe not in this stress mood, in this upset mood.. but in cheerful, happy-go-lucky as im used to be..

Hey soo.. keep smile.. keep smile to urself.. you'll be good soon.. insyaallah.. Sebab saya ada tuhan saya..!!

Luv, soo.