--aku--ngko--aku--ngko--

..sebenarnye stiap kali ak dgr perkataan ni dr mulut die.. ak rs mcm ak ni org lain bg die. die dah xknal ak. sape ak ntuk die? btol ker die syg ak.. walaupown die ckp lakonan tp jauh sudut ati aku... sdeh lak ble stiap kali panggl ak mcm tu.. tp die da start dlu pggl ak camtu then ak trima je lar.. xpe lar soo, biar la die nk pggl ape pown, simpan jer dlm ati dlu.. asalkan die bahagia n selesa.. ak xpe.. jgn mudah kecik ati n mrajuk.. xkuase org nk pujuk ko soo, manusoa lama22 bosan gak.. ko igt ko bgus sgt ker soo nk demand mcm2 n cerewet lg tu.. hurm ntah byk plak ak pk mlm ni.. da la esk nk xpdc.. satu ape pown ak xkmas lg..
well ble dah 'ko-ak' ni.. msg pown xde dr die.. xpe ar xyah menghrp ape2 lar soo. ko tu sape, xlayak pown... xmsk langsung dr kamus idup die.. esk.. xpyh ko ngengade pggl die syg lg..sia2 jerr soo..

and i was said..

its okay... im nobody n hav nothing in my life...

::soo::

::soo in sorrow again::

my blog.. da letih mate ni nk nangis.. tp ksedihan ttp xreda jgk.. huuuuuuuuuuuuuuu... nk nangis lagi..........
ive made decision bt at last im suffer. but its ok for our own goodness...

it was too dangerous 4 me to express all everything here.. jus writing on my mobile.. tu jer mampu ak nuat ntuk kurangkn kesedihan ak.. lame2 mate pown bleh bute nih...
huhu i really need to stop thingking. otak ak dah letih, penat..
tolonglah ya Allah tunjuk kan ak jalan kebenaran.. ak mohon agar engkau tidak lupakan ak.. insan yang banyak salah kepadamu...

tolonglah.....

::sooinsorrowagain::

huh..

tension. bengang. cakap tp mcm xnak cakap. klu boring, ckp boring; klu fed up, ckp fed up..isk.. maybe sb die da taw swgala2nya psl ak.. die da jd len sket. n its so normal when people seek for perfection.. and im totally out from the aspect of perfection.. "maafkan bila ku xsempurna, cinta itu xmungkin ku cegah..ayat2 cinta bercerita, cinta ku padaMu.." so, believe in urself so, not others..

knp lar ak jd mcm ni..

im going to have very serious relationship. its not joke. i luv him. mis his face, mis his fsmile.. but wat we hv to do when all planned is crash as our dream..? ni lar ak mls nk couple, mst ade emotion yg xstabil, n wat benda yg pelik2..
came on soO, be urself.. kuatkan semangat lawan prasaan tu.. i nOe i can.. n never give a sympathy antmore to d stupid creative ideas.. that's it soo. u can n be a good human..

-->sOo..

ku mohon..

masih adakah ruang itu untukku,
untuk ku menebus dosa ku,
atas segala kejahatan itu, atas segala kesengajaan itu,
sungguh hina manusia, tidak menghiraukan pencipta Nya,
membelakangi tuhannya,
betapa kejinya diri, namun sesalan itu sudah tak berguna lagi,
adakah kekuatanitu masih ada, mengharap jalanku terang disuluh,
mengharap jalanku betul dipimpin, agar tidak tersasar lagi,
Tuhanku, aku hambaMu yang lemah benar mengharap keampunan Mu,
mohon bantulah diriku, insan malang tiada berteman...

susahnyer hati...

huhu knp ak tpikir psl kisah silam ak lg? betapa serabutnyer otak ak mase tu. ak xdpt brfikir ape2.. dan ak dpt rs lg prasaan tu skarang.. hurm mmg ak jahat.. mmg ak jahat.. ak xdpt maafkan diri ak sendiri pun.. dan.. ak kasihan dkt org yg menerima ak sbg girlfren. xadil bagi die.. mmg xadil.. ak buntu. patut ak berpatah balik utk memberi ruang keadilan bagi dia..? demi rasa sayang ak ntuk dia.. ak rela lepaskan dia pergi agar ruang ntuk die mencari pempuan yg lebih baik...